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01.03.2018.

Sjedim na kraju svijeta i pušem maslačak

Ne znam ni koliko su ovi osjećaji realni i potkovani stvarnim dešavanjima ili su samo produkt neke dosade i osjećaja nevidljivosti među ljudima. Nikad više ''ženiću te'' tipova poruka, a nikad veća izolovanost.

U suštini mi nije dosadno kada sam sama i kada imam prostora za sebe, problem je kada sam okružena ljudima i nemam ni malo privatnog prostora da nešto radim osim da sjedim i igram igrica.

Osim što se osjećam skučeno i odvojeno od ostatka svijeta, boli me tijelo, sve me boli. I nervira me što su svi misle da mi ništa nije i da pretjerujem, a jedva se iz kreveta dignem.
Doduše, i prestala sam ljudima pričati kako sam i šta ima, nije da iko želi i znati.

Nije ni da imam šta reći, osim da se u jednom trenutku osjećam prejako, a u drugom sam agresivna olupina i imam potrebu nanijeti neku štetu. Nikako ne pripadam ovom životu, a eto me opet, iz dana u dan vodim neku rutinu,a ni sama nekad ne znam zašto nešto.

12.02.2018.

Chakras

A chakra is a “wheel,” an energy center in the body.

Both the upward current and downward current of energy must be open and flowing for us to be optimally healthy and whole.

There are seven major chakras in tantric yoga philosophy. Here is a quick guide to each of these seven sacred energy centers; may it be of benefit.




1st Chakra

Location: Root/base of the spine
Sanskrit: Muladhara/”root support”
Color: red
Element: earth
Issues: stability, survival, unity, identity, ego, birth, death
Associated with: legs, feet, bones, adrenal gland, large intestine, teeth, spinal column
Governs: perception of the physical world; motivation and intent, birth, work, money, eating, digestion
Malfunction: weight problems, eating disorders, constipation, sciatica, arthritis, knee problems


Healing Techniques

Music: tribal drums; root chakra playlist
Affirmations: I am Earth. I am here. I am solid. I am alive. I am beginning anew.
Yoga poses: mountain, squat, standing forward bend, garland, child’s
Connect with: Mother Earth/pacha mama, the soles of the feet, root lock/mula bandha
Pranayama: Ujjayi breath
Practice: Hatha yoga, yin yoga
Meditation: breath awareness





2nd Chakra

Location: Sacrum/center of pelvis
Sanskrit: Svadistana/”sweetness”
Color: orange
Element: water
Issues: duality, choice, desire, emotions, sexuality
Associated with: the liquid part of the body, circulatory and urinary systems
Governs: feelings of creativity; the intimacy and vulnerability of sexual attraction; the ability to produce and nurture our own children
Malfunction: impotence, frigidity, uterine/bladder/kidney problems, lower back pain


Healing Techniques

Music: jazz; sacral chakra playlist
Affirmations: I am change. I am growth. I am desirable. I am dynamic. I am flowing with grace.
Poses: Warrior 1, Warrior 2, lizard, pigeon, hanumanasana (“the splits”)
Connect with: the hips
Pranayama: Alternate Nostril Breathing
Practice: Tantra yoga, vinyasa flows
Meditation: meditation on sensation





3rd Chakra

Location: Solar plexus/navel
Sanskrit: Manipura/”Lustrous gem”
Color: yellow
Element: fire
Issues: power, will, strength, courage, effort
Associated with: adrenal glands, pancreas, liver, stomach, nervous system; regulation and distribution of metabolic energy
Governs: emotional issues, personal power, self-respect, courage, healthy humility; learning the power of grace

Malfunction: ulcers, diabetes, digestive disorders, muscular
problems

Healing Techniques

Music: rock; solar plexus playlist
Affirmations: I am powerful. I am fierce. I am capable. I am energetic. I can change my life.
Poses: single leg lifts, double leg lifts, boat, eagle, plank
Connect with: the core, abdominal lock/ uddiyana bandha
Pranayama: breath of fire
Practice: karma yoga
Meditation: meditation on emotion





4th Chakra

Location: Heart/center of chest
Sanskrit: Anahata/”unstruck sound”
Color: green
Element: air
Issues: love, friendship, kindness, forgiveness, devotion, generosity
Associated with: thymus gland, lungs, hands, heart, blood; immune and endocrine systems.
Governs: love, compassion, unconditional acceptance
Malfunction: high blood pressure, respiratory problems, heart and lung problems, feeling heartbroken


Healing Techniques

Music: classical, heart chakra playlist
Affirmations: I am fresh. I am clean. I am unstruck. I am unstuck. I am loving. I am loved.
Poses: standing back bend, camel, reverse warrior, triangle, bridge, wheel
Connect with: the heart, the breath, the wind, maitri Pranayama: full yogic breath
Practice: Bhakti yoga, yin yoga, restorative yoga Meditation: forgiveness, Metta/loving kindness





5th chakra

Location: Throat/center of neck
Sanskrit: Vissudha/”With purity”
Color: turquoise/sky blue
Element: sound, ether
Issues: communication, expression, creativity, speech, listening
Associated with: thyroid and parathyroid glands, lungs, vocal cords, shoulders, neck, arms, hands
Governs: expression of thoughts and feelings, finding our own truth and relearning the ability to express ourselves
Malfunction: colds, thyroid problems, ear/hearing problems, sore throats, speech problems


Healing Techniques

Music: World, throat chakra playlist
Affirmations: I am open. I am honest. I am expressive. I am empowered.
Poses: camel, shoulder stand, fish, neck rolls, cobra
Connect with: the throat, throat lock/Jalandhara bandha
Pranayama: bumblebee breath
Practice: chanting, Mantra yoga
Meditation: Tonglen





6th Chakra

Location: third eye/between, slightly above and behind eyebrows
Sanskrit: Ajna/”Wisdom center”; perception and command
Color: indigo/midnight blue
Element: light
Issues: intuition, insight, intellect, imagination
Associated with: pineal gland; visual input from our two physical eyes and our “third eye” of psychic perception
Governs: spirituality and the search for meaning in life, visualization, inner awareness and witness consciousness
Malfunction: blindness, headaches, nightmares, eye strain, blurred vision


Healing Techniques

Music: soul, third eye playlist
Affirmations: I am looking. I am seeing. I am noticing. I am intuitive. I connect with my inner wisdom.
Poses: child’s, cobbler’s, savasana, locust, bow
Connect with: the forehead, the present moment, the inner self Pranayama: kapalabhati breathing
Practice: Yantra yoga
Meditation: Vipassana/insight meditation





7th Chakra

Location: crown/top of head
Sanskrit: Sahasrara/”thousandfold”
Color: violet or white
Element: thought
Issues: divinity, wisdom, connectivity, inner peace, enlightenment Associated with: pituitary gland
Governs: our connection to the divine, the universe, God, our Buddha Nature, a higher intelligence; living our Truth; willingness to surrender
Malfunction: depression, alienation, confusion, boredom, apathy, feeling disconnected or disjointed


Healing Techniques

Music: the sound of silence
Affirmations: I am. I am here, now. I am Buddha. I am the church. Poses: headstand, rabbit, downward dog, easy pose, half-lotus, lotus
Connect with: the top of the head, the sky, the universe Pranayama: ocean breath
Practice: Raja and jnana yoga
Meditations: Zazen, pure awareness, mindfulness

12.02.2018.

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Mislim da sam počela prihvatati činjenicu da je vrijeme da se rastenemo bez obzira što to ne želimo. Neugodno je, bolno i razarajuće za svaki nervni završetak. Voljela bih da mi pokažeš kako, ali ne radiš ništa. Vadim se na budističke fazone da mi sve to bude lakše i razumljivije, ali nije od neke velike pomoći. Jedan obični san i na početku sam, a raditi centrifugu osjećaja nije nimalo produktivno. Bojim se da nikad neće do kraja biti gotovo.

24.01.2018.

Umirem majko

Kroz ove 4 godine dodatnog školovanja i usavršavanja moje tako važne malenkosti i ličnosti i pm vražije, trebala mi je dodatna motivacija da prisustvujem svemu tome. Na primjer, bilo bi potrebno otići na neki čaj prije/poslije, kartati se i dobro se prošetati, ili imati neku zanimljivu igricu na mobitelu koju ćete igrati i poslije predavanja koliko je zanimljiva. Ili recimo, bilo je dovoljno dogovoriti kakav jutarnji dejt sa njim, Cap. Morganom i naravno, kartama, ili kakva dobra pizza od 3 KM i limenkom, ma ljepota studiranja, majke mi. Sad sam i ispite počela spremati uz određene promile alkohola. I sve to zvuči uzbudljivije nego što jeste. Uskoro će 20:00 i službeno počinjem sa čitanjem knjige od 500 + sitno stranica, osjećajući se kao prosječni student završne godine koji nema o čemu uzbudljivijem pričati.

02.12.2017.

Heroji gluposti, nazdravlje!

Znaš da si seljak onda kada napokon shvatiš šta je to što želiš u svom malom i kratkom životu pa umjesto da daš sve od sebe da to ostvariš i zadržiš ti letiš ko muha bez glave i srušiš sve i jedan temelj koji ti je držao to nešto preko popravljivog.

22.08.2017.

Dva plamena

The basic difference between a soulmate and a twin flame is that anyone in our life could be a soulmate—including a parent, friend, child or lover. The twin flame connection is only a romantic relationship.


The twin flame relationship is described as the division of a single flame that was placed into two different souls. These two souls are then reincarnated over the course of several lifetimes gathering human experiences and learning — usually only coming together during one of their last lifetimes on Earth.

The reunion of the twin flames is the ultimate undefinable romantic connection of two souls. But this connection is far from easy—or simple.


One of the first signs that we have met our twin flame is the high level of understanding that we feel toward one another. We simply make sense to one another, and while we may sometimes wonder about what our choices, we simply understand their soul.

There is also a familiarity between twin flames that makes us feel like we have known each other forever.

It’s the feeling of looking into another’s eyes and seeing ourselves reflected back at us.

It’s not always going to make sense and it’s not going to follow any predetermined timeline, but it will shake us to our core.

Because every once in a while we meet someone — and from the very first meeting it feels like coming home.
This is what it feels like to be looking into the eyes of our twin flame.

Another of the surest signs of the twin flame connection is the synchronized push and pull toward our mate. This type of connection is overwhelming at times and terrifying at others.

At the very best it’s everything we’ve ever wanted and at the worst, overwhelming because of its emotional depths.


The twin flame relationship is not an easy one to navigate.

To make matters worse, there is historically a runner and a chaser phase within each union.

While the reasoning behind these roles are still much unknown, it seems that as part of the equal division of the Yin-Yang energy upon creation, there is one partner who is constantly scared of the connection (often the male energy) and the other who is the validator (usually female) of all the feelings and energy present.

It’s not to say that the runner can’t then become the chaser, but historically there is one twin flame who is the first to express their heart and lay it on the line.

It is then up to the runner to see if they are soul ready to accept this type of union and relationship.

Fortunately, this chasing and running phase doesn’t last for the duration of the relationship, but it is usually present in the beginning, until both people are accountable for their past, including any lingering emotional or mental baggage.

Many people often dismiss the twin flame connection because of the initial difficulty, but it is this hard beginning that truly defines the twin flame relationship.

Only our twin flame can hold up the mirror to all of the aspects of our lives where we are stuck and need to grow. But both partners must decide whether to stick around for the metamorphosis or to pull a permeant disappearing act.

Twin flames will have the most convoluted love stories—this is not a boy meet girl, boy falls in love with girl and boy marries girl type of love story. No, this union will be more like boy meets girl, boy runs away from girl, girl marries another, boy travels the world, boy and girl meet again decade’s later, boy runs from girl again, and girl runs from boy—so forth and so on.

Sometimes twin flames just aren’t ready to come together in a particular lifetime—but even if we are, our storyline won’t be an easy one.

The entire purpose of the twin flame experience is to challenge one another and wake each other up to be the best possible version of ourselves—but not everyone is ready to be awakened.

Not everyone is ready to dive to the depths of their soul, to see what lurks there—and sometimes, no matter how our hearts feel, in the end, it is sometimes easier to run away.

The major theme to a twin flame connection is that no matter how many times we part ways — we always seem to find our way back to one another.

Time becomes irrelevant — because souls don’t understand the concept of months or years — we only understand the feeling of powerful eye contact and of the incredible soul shaking energy when our chakra points line up with another.

And it’s because of these intense physical responses, that everything else just drops away when two twin flames come into contact with one another.

The twin flame connection is a powerful life changing force because of the deep spiritual and emotional connection.

06.08.2017.

Živjeti s istinom.

Za Sabinu, živjeti s istinom, ne lagati ni sebi ni drugima, moguće je samo pod uvjetom da se živi bez publike. U trenutku kada neko počne pratiti ono što radimo, polinjemo se, htjeli ili ne hjeli, prilagođavati očima koje nas gledaju i ništa od onog što radimo nije više istinito. Imati publiku, znači živjeti u laži.
Čovjek koji gubi svoju intimnost gubi sve, misli Sabina. A čovjek koji je dobrovoljno odbacuje obično je čudovište. Zbog toga Sabina nimalo ne pati što mora skrivati svoju ljubav. Naprotiv, samo tako može ''živjeti s sitinom''.

Franz je, nasuprot tome, siguran da u podjeli života na privatnu i javnu sferu leže korijeni svih laži; čovjek je privatno jedno, a u javnosti nešto sasvim drugo. ''Živjeti s istinom'' za njega znači srušiti barijere između privatnog i javnog. Pakirao je kovčeg kada je u sobu išla Marie - Claude. - Već gotovo godinu dana imam ljubavnicu - rekao je.

Sabina se osjećala kao da je Franz silom provalio vrata njezine intimnosti. Kao da je kroz ta vrata iznenada provirila glava Marie-Claude. Postat će protiv svoje volje suparnica neke žene koja je nimalo ne zanima. Franz će se rastati, a ona će zauzeti mjesto pokraj njega u širokoj bračnoj postelji. Svi će to gledati, bit će prisiljena pred svima igrati neko kazalište - umjesto da bude Sabina, morat će igrati ulogu Sabine, i još izmisliti kako izgrati tu ulogu. Ljubav će, kad za nju sazna javnost, dobiti na težini, postat će teret.

Sjećala se njihova susreta u spavaćim kolima za Amsterdam. Tada je htjela pasti pred njim na koljena i moliti ga neka je zadrži, makar silom, i nikad ne pusti da ode. Tada je željela da opasnom putu izdaje konačno dođe kraj. Nastojala je što je moguće inzenzivnije obnoviti tu tadašnju čežnju, dozvati je, osloniti se na nju. Sve je bilo uzalud. Osjećaj nezadovoljstva bio je jači.

A Sabina je ugasila svijetiljku upravo zbog tih zatvorenih očiju. Nije više htjela ni jednu sekundu promatrati te spuštene kapke. Franzovo tijelo koje se uvijalo na njoj zatvorenih očiju bilo je za nju tijelo bez duše. Ne, ne želi više gledati kako se grči na njoj, više mu nikad neće ponuditi dojku kao kuja štenetu, ovo je danas posljednji put, definitivno posljednji put!

Znala je naravno, da je njena odluka vrhunac nepravde, da je Franz najbolji od svih muškaraca, da je lijep, da je dobar, ali što je više postajala svjesna svega toga, osjećala je sve jaču želju da siluje tu inteligenciju, da siluje tu nemoćnu snagu.

Voljela ga je te noći žešće nego iakda prije. Činilo joj se da se pred njom pružaju beskrajna prostranstva slobode i te daljine su je uzbuđivale.
Franz je jecao na njezinom tijelu siguran da sve razumije. Davala mu je do znanja svoju radost, svoju strast, svoju suglanost, želju da živi s njim do kraja života.

Izgledao je sam sebi kao jahač koji jaše na konju u prekrasnu prazninu, prazninu bez supruge, bez kćeri, bez domaćinstva, u prekrasnu prazninu pometenu Herkulovom metlom, u predivnu prazninu koju će ispuniti svojom ljubavlju. Jahali su tako, jedno na drugom, kao na konju. Jahali su prema daljinama za kojima su čeznuli. Spjala ih je izdaja, koja ih je oslobodila. Franz je jahao na Sabini svjestan da izdaje svoju ženu. Sabina je jahala na Franzu svjesna da izdaje Franza.

06.08.2017.

Paralele

Plivala sam na sred mora sa ptičicom i odjednom su počeli valovi. Bili su sve veći i veći, gutala sam vodu i davila se, ali sam bila fokusirana na to da spasim ptičicu. Uzela sam je u šaku kako je valovi ne bi zapljusnuli i potopili, stiskala je sve jače i jače, a kada su se napokon smirili vidjela sam dva mala oka kako plutaju pored mene i shvatila da sam je ubila. A mogla sam je samo pustiti da odleti pa bi se obje uspjele izvući.

A tako radimo i sa problemima oko nas.
Kada se nešto tiče nas samih, sve to doživljavamo intenzivnije, tragičnije, komplikovanije i strašnije. Umjesto da sve te probleme gledamo kao neku neugodnost koja će proći, koju možemo podnijeti i riješiti, utapamo se u kreiranoj iluziji tragedije i vječne patnje, od muhe pravimo slona. Idealni smo savjetnici prijateljima, ali smo sami sebi neprijatelji.
Al' postoji i ono da zapravo ljudi pronalaze užitak u tome. Osjećaju se jaki u svojoj tragediji i nesreći, ali su preslabi za nešto bolje od toga. Preslabi da uživaju u sreći. Radije ćemo sjediti i plakati u sobu nego se izložiti nekoj ''opasnosti'' kako bi dobili nešto što zapravo i želimo. Ima nas svakakvih.


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